Beware the Dog | ||
2003-01-11 || Who I am, Like it or not. | ||
I am one of those people that is always wishing that they were different, better, smarter, more like other people ... Like a nuprin or better. Or something. ("Little, yellow, different, better.") The below lesson is hopefully a chance and beginning to learn to respect who I really am. Following someday soon ... WHO I WISH I WAS. Try not to laugh. Too much. WHO I AM **A lesson in futility, reality and truth. Possibly a chance to gain some perspective. �Someone who works out on a regular basis. �Someone who tries to eat well, but doesn�t always. �Someone who loves her boyfriend, even when she is angry with him. �Someone who likes to learn but hates to be told what to do. �Someone who doesn�t take criticism very well. �Someone who wants a lot of friends but doesn�t want the regulations that goes along with being social. �Someone who works better on a regimented schedule. �Someone who doesn�t make a lot of money but believes in what they do. �Someone who isn�t always completely honest to other people but is trying to learn to always be to themselves. �Someone who doesn�t want to spend the rest of their life being as average and boring as other people. �Someone who hates when other people brag. �Someone who has a hard time concentrating/pushing themselves when they don�t care about what they are working on. �Someone who wants other people to feel good. �Someone who doesn�t want to hurt other people. �Someone who wants to know how to love others well and kindly. �Someone who wishes they are pretty. �Someone that their old friends no longer talk to or e-mail. �Someone who has stolen before � but I like to think not al lot. �Someone who can be self-righteous � but has been learning to notice when she is and hopefully curb it a bit. �Someone that KNOWS she is only self-righteous when she is watching other people have negative behaviors that she also has. �Someone that sees the negative in herself in everyone that she dislikes. �Someone that has been known to forget that she loves herself. �Someone that wants to live in reality and know who she really is. �Someone who will never be bone-jutting thin. But really wants to be! �Someone that loves reality shows (especially MTV ones), TwoP, on-line journals, writing, volunteering, her family, reading, shopping and her dogs. �Someone who never takes very good care of her cars. �Someone who wants to live in New York or Boston � but not until she is rich enough to do so easily. �Someone who enjoys animals, being outside, small hikes, long walks to the dog-park, being introspective, getting back rubs. �Someone who wishes she was a lot taller. �And thinner. �And more motivated,
�Busier and � �Smarter. �Someone who waited twenty-six years to hear her daddy say that he was proud of her. �Then cried when he said it. �And felt embarrassed. �Someone who isn�t too upset about this list. But thought that she would be. |
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