|Beware the Dog|
|2003-01-11 || Who I am, Like it or not.|
I am one of those people that is always wishing that they were different, better, smarter, more like other people ... Like a nuprin or better. Or something. ("Little, yellow, different, better.") The below lesson is hopefully a chance and beginning to learn to respect who I really am. Following someday soon ... WHO I WISH I WAS.
Try not to laugh. Too much.
WHO I AM
**A lesson in futility, reality and truth. Possibly a chance to gain some perspective.
�Someone who works out on a regular basis.
�Someone who tries to eat well, but doesn�t always.
�Someone who loves her boyfriend, even when she is angry with him.
�Someone who likes to learn but hates to be told what to do.
�Someone who doesn�t take criticism very well.
�Someone who wants a lot of friends but doesn�t want the regulations that goes along with being social.
�Someone who works better on a regimented schedule.
�Someone who doesn�t make a lot of money but believes in what they do.
�Someone who isn�t always completely honest to other people but is trying to learn to always be to themselves.
�Someone who doesn�t want to spend the rest of their life being as average and boring as other people.
�Someone who hates when other people brag.
�Someone who has a hard time concentrating/pushing themselves when they don�t care about what they are working on.
�Someone who wants other people to feel good.
�Someone who doesn�t want to hurt other people.
�Someone who wants to know how to love others well and kindly.
�Someone who wishes they are pretty.
�Someone that their old friends no longer talk to or e-mail.
�Someone who has stolen before � but I like to think not al lot.
�Someone who can be self-righteous � but has been learning to notice when she is and hopefully curb it a bit.
�Someone that KNOWS she is only self-righteous when she is watching other people have negative behaviors that she also has.
�Someone that sees the negative in herself in everyone that she dislikes.
�Someone that has been known to forget that she loves herself.
�Someone that wants to live in reality and know who she really is.
�Someone who will never be bone-jutting thin. But really wants to be!
�Someone that loves reality shows (especially MTV ones), TwoP, on-line journals, writing, volunteering, her family, reading, shopping and her dogs.
�Someone who never takes very good care of her cars.
�Someone who wants to live in New York or Boston � but not until she is rich enough to do so easily.
�Someone who enjoys animals, being outside, small hikes, long walks to the dog-park, being introspective, getting back rubs.
�Someone who wishes she was a lot taller.
�And more motivated,
�Busier and �
�Someone who waited twenty-six years to hear her daddy say that he was proud of her.
�Then cried when he said it.
�And felt embarrassed.
�Someone who isn�t too upset about this list. But thought that she would be.