Beware the Dog | ||
2003-05-24 || Not doin' much work | ||
xmlns:w="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:word" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/TR/REC-html40"> Sometimes I hate working on Saturdays. style="mso-spacerun: yes"> style="mso-spacerun: yes"> done, it is only 10:10 a.m. and I am already href="http://www.gap.com/html/tools/charts/bras_popup.asp#panties">panty shopping at Gap. Do I have the money to be doing this? Nope. Am I sure that I am going to go through with this order? Nep. But when you are dying to shop, you have to at least �window shop�. I really do need new bras. I have very few because my breasts are too big and it is pointless for me not to buy the good ones. I�ll never be that girl that can wear a t-shirt with out a bra, unless I have the reduction surgery that I have always wanted. But, I am so afraid of the pain. I watch MTV people. I have seen the look on women�s faces when they roll out of cosmetic surgery. I am a wuss and clearly not narcissistic enough to go under the blade � I am close though, I had an appointment with a plastic surgeon when I graduated from college. I even tried to get insurance to cover the reduction. style="mso-spacerun: yes"> are larger than me.� Which makes no sense. style="mso-spacerun: yes"> harmful to my 5 ft. frame to carry 34 D breasts than a woman that was 5� 8� � right? I wanna� wear a tube top. I have a piss-poor href="http://www.symposion.com/ijt/ijtc0501.htm">body image have. I am so one of those women that feels like she is threatened and self conscious in public because I feel like I stick out like a sore thumb. I am so wrapped up in my body image that I even have a hard time believing other women that say that they are comfortable with their bodies. The only time that I am really comfy with my physical body is when I am working out. style="mso-spacerun: yes"> women�s treatment and post-modern discourse about the href="http://dir.salon.com/ent/movies/review/2000/04/21/suicides/index.html">male gaze I watched Roger Dodger. style="mso-spacerun: yes"> talking about the male gaze and even going further expressing exactly how it is that a man can look at a woman. It�s a strange flick, if you should ever get the chance � It�s the story of a single ad-writer living in Manhattan, who teaches his run-away nephew about women, getting laid and gets back at his boss and former lover all in one adventurous night. style="mso-spacerun: yes"> smoked so many cigarettes that I wanted to shower and the boyfriend wanted to start smoking again. Three hours later � I am still not sure of how much work I am getting done today. |
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